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Ann
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I like falling asleep, but i hate 'going' to sleep. falling asleep means i'm tired and comfortable, and i've found myself laying flat somewhere with time to sleep. falling asleep usually happens on the couch, on my fiance's lap, or in bed on top of a book. falling asleep always happens ON something.

Going to sleep is when I'm not really tired, but I head to bed because I should.. because i have to be up at some ridiculous hour, or i should be tired and i'm not.. Going to sleep is a drag. it feels like a waste of time. it feels like I should be up watching Hulu, or wrapping presents, or studying, or doing any of a thousand things I never find time to do in daylight. Going to sleep feels like giving up.

Lately, going to sleep has also involved my deranged brain conjuring up every possible painful scenario imaginable between now and forever. I've imagined the death, disability, dismemberment of everyone i love. I've seen myself with diseases, unemployed, dumped, childless, alone and lonely on my deathbed. I've imagined the deaths of pets I don't even have yet. No matter how I try to trick myself into thinking about something else, within a minute it always wraps back around to the many horrible things i will undoubtedly experience.. probably tomorrow or the next day. It takes hours, hours, to finally, blessedly, fall asleep.

i haven't always been this way. I don't know when it started or if it will end. is the whole world like this? what do you think about before you drift off?

tell me a happy story.

The Pig Plan...

LBeeeze
Yesterday
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Pig determined Squirrelio's snarky comment could not go unanswered, so he asked Cousin Patsy Pig to help him with the Pig Plan.

Pig Plan

Squirrelio said, "Oh, my," when she saw Golden Apple tied so tight and high.

Oh, My!!

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She knew no matter how tall she stood, she could not reach Golden Apple.

Tied Tight and High

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Squirrelio was so frustrated she even asked the photographer for help.

Help??

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Then she angrily told Pig, "I'll bite your bacon if I can't have Golden Apple!"

Bacon Biter

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Not to be outdone by Pig, Squirrelio's frustration soon turned to determination. She stretched and stretched and inched and inched ever closer to Golden Apple.